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blehhhhhhhh
suddenly feel so bad for criticizing ppl behind their backs....
especially since I....who is always eager to share information i know and express my opinion......
[but no worries.....i don say wat im not supposed to....]
it makes me feel as low as those bitch tht embrace backstabbing as their career or even pleasure....god knows wat they gain from this backstabbing
*sigh*
i've always known tht there are these 'batu api' tht exist around us....
well there is bound to be......
but 'unfortunately' GOD has never let me experience the cruelty of these ppl to prepare me against another of their kind
though HE has gifted me with the good sense of avoiding conflicts with these ppl...
well maybe this good sense comes from getting bullied in kindergarden......and......my first n 2nd year in primary school......

not until recently did i have some stronger opinion about these kind of ppl....
it's not like the problem wasnt there all along.....
it's tht i juz realised tht other than a few ppl close to me....i m not the only one who feels the insincerity of ppl of those kind....

wat i feel is...
why do these ppl hav to make ppl around them uncomfortable?
and to an extent despise them?
i mean...arent they tired of it?
why cant they juz be themselves?

frankly, i expect ppl to be true to themselves...
why pretend to like me when they actually dont?
and the most important part is i don really care wat they do......
but these ppl make me feel insincere too when i interact with them....
*scowling*
well bcoz i know they are not sincere but i have no choice but to reply with the same degree of insincerity......