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blehhhhhhhh
suddenly feel so bad for criticizing ppl behind their backs....
especially since I....who is always eager to share information i know and express my opinion......
[but no worries.....i don say wat im not supposed to....]
it makes me feel as low as those bitch tht embrace backstabbing as their career or even pleasure....god knows wat they gain from this backstabbing
*sigh*
i've always known tht there are these 'batu api' tht exist around us....
well there is bound to be......
but 'unfortunately' GOD has never let me experience the cruelty of these ppl to prepare me against another of their kind
though HE has gifted me with the good sense of avoiding conflicts with these ppl...
well maybe this good sense comes from getting bullied in kindergarden......and......my first n 2nd year in primary school......

not until recently did i have some stronger opinion about these kind of ppl....
it's not like the problem wasnt there all along.....
it's tht i juz realised tht other than a few ppl close to me....i m not the only one who feels the insincerity of ppl of those kind....

wat i feel is...
why do these ppl hav to make ppl around them uncomfortable?
and to an extent despise them?
i mean...arent they tired of it?
why cant they juz be themselves?

frankly, i expect ppl to be true to themselves...
why pretend to like me when they actually dont?
and the most important part is i don really care wat they do......
but these ppl make me feel insincere too when i interact with them....
*scowling*
well bcoz i know they are not sincere but i have no choice but to reply with the same degree of insincerity......

half of my 1-month holiday is gone...
well it's typical of me not to use the time of my holidays wisely...as is the habit of a lazy bum...
haha

rite..i'll be frank..
i spend my days reading novels [yea..those 400-page-romance-novels of english lords n damsels in distress]..watching tv..n pretty much SLEEP
i finished 4 books in one week...
rite..not very impressive speed but crazy enuf for me..cuz sometimes i read until dawn n then go to sleep when i think my parents are up..
so i wake at noon or sometimes later than tht...
yes...tht's the time i wake up every day...
though sometimes it's not bcoz of reading...it could b tv...

speaking of tv my sis went n borrow {All About Eve} from my aunt n we watched the whole thing in 2 days...
20 cds..
but of course...half of the time we watch it in fast forward...cuz those are hated scenes...
ah..it's an old Korean drama from the year 2000...main actor is the famous Jang Dong Geon aka 张东健
and i still love it...it's a gud drama...haha

n tell u wat..
all those love from the novels n drama has had an effect on me ><
cuz i wonder when i'll experience it myself...
hahahahaha...
it'd be nice to finally know wat all those love songs are singing about, wouldnt it?

xxx

spent 2 nights in Genting wif classmates the week after exams..
lazy so never blogged about it...
it was a fun trip...
nth out of the ordinary except tht guys n gals share rooms...
n we played games till 4 a.m.
on the 2nd night i got to b the mafia for a record-breaking 10 times in the mafia game [wat luck!]
n i got to play snooker for the first time..
i believe tht if i hav practice i'd be a gud shot..
hehe no kidding
it was a week b4 MTV Asia Awards [held at Genting] n i saw posters everywhere n then i immediately thought of Super Junior...they won the Korean Favourite Artist award by the way...
n i so damn wished i was there a week later to catch a glimpse of them...haha
i heard they were passing out free tickets b4 the show started T_T
man..i'd die [ahem..figuratively speaking] to go c them perform live!! for free summore!!
Only 13! Fighting!