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phew~~
having 2 presentations in a row can be SO STRESSFUL...

i dunno how i managed to get through it....
but i did....hehe

okie....
our CTS presentation...
well, overall it was ok....
but my fren was practically reading from his notes when he talked about the pros & cons of circumcision...
n he talked MUCH TOO LONG....
[i wish he heard wat my eng lecturer said about students' presentations juz now....she said tht u're supposed to talk to the audience....not repeating informations....HOW TRUE]
when it was my turn to talk, Ms Winnie hinted me to be brief n talk fast.....
fortunately i knew my stuff....
n it juz came rolling out of my mouth....

then for Microeconomics....
ahah.....tht's an entirely different story......
i didn't manage to produce a script for my presentation......
n so had no preparations whatsoever ><
but luckily i did know my answer n explained it on the spot!
haha....n so i kinda made a fool out of myself earlier....
oh well.....at least it was ok lah......

it's kinda funny....
how stressed out i was over the presentations and the preparations for it....
n then it was juz over in a matter of minutes.....

the day went ok...
but i have one complaint...
we had to include a written summary for our micro presentation....
so i was to compile wat everyone wrote......maximum 500 words
but my teammate....
didnt finish his part even after midnight last night.....
so i told him to send it to me by 9 this morning....
CTS class starts at 9.30....n the next class is micro......
obviously i don hav tht much time to edit n put everything together.....
but he wrote more than 500 words!!!!!!

GOSH....U THINK IM SO GOOD I CAN SUMMARIZE EVERYTHING IN 10 MINUTES????

this guy is obviously crazy....
i don like his way of thinking, his way of doing things....
he makes me angry....
i don even know why i consider him as a fren =.=
well, lesson learnt....
I AM NEVER GOING TO WORK WITH HIM ANYMORE

anyway....end of semester.....
but exams start on Saturday.......
urgh......the schedule is much too rushed......

i need to get distinctions!!!!!

i've experienced so many things n gone thru so much emotions these few days tht i do not even noe where to begin...

well, to give a brief explanation...
the deadline for both Critical Thinking Skills (CTS) and Moral reports is today...13th November...
n wat the hell, we only started to write them this week....[they're group works]
so u can imagine how hectic it was trying to come up wif two, not one, minimum-3000-word reports....

the situation wasn't too bad actually...
cuz i've done enough last minute work in the past to know that i can pull it off...
at least it shouldn't be that hard...
but hell and damnation, problems arised....
all for the same reason, the human factor......

so, the scenario....
[note: im talking about the CTS project, n the topic we got is 'Circumcision'......duh]

last week, i came up with an outline for the report, and each of us took one part to focus on n then write about it.....
i honestly expected no problems, cuz everyone was supposed to do their own job n then we would then compile everything, then it's done!
uh huh.....easy to say........

hell, i should have expected problems from this member....
cuz i've worked enough times with him to know how he thinks....
he can think so much yet twist everything in his mind until he gets it all wrong.....

so, this member gathered information on the net n found that there was a lot of contradictory stuff about circumcision....
he didn't know how to organize these facts....
so he came to us....

i was very doubtful of the things he said....cuz i didn't see those facts anywhere at all....
so i kept questioning him from the very beginning.....
then he gave us his pen-drive.....n told us to c the things he'd saved inside.....
he saved lots of websites inside.....more than 10....
n he told us to read them.....cuz he didn't remember where he'd seen the facts.....
and i was SO PISSED....
it was the first time i'd ever get so angry that i swear so much...

wat....u expect us to read and analyze everything for u????
u think we don have our parts to do??????
u think that u can juz throw us ur problem n then expect us to solve it for u???????
NO WAY MAN.....

not only that, he even said this to me: "i dunno how to do, juz tell me wat to do n then i'll go home n write it...."

gosh....he sounded like we forced this on him!!
excuse me.....i noe this is a group work, but can't u juz decide on yourself????
don't u have some guts in u to do the work n then take responsibility for it????
WELL, APPARENTLY NOT

let us juz say, after some considerable expression of anger and frustration on both parties...
somehow, miraculously, we got through it......

still, i have to say that dealing with him is very tiring....
he juz wears me out n wastes a hell lot of my time.....

wait, that's not all.....
when he finally finished everything n sent the file to us yesterday......
we found that his referencing was all wrong.....
so we told him.....
n guess wat he said to me......
"i dunno how to do referencing...... i told u already mah...... ask u to teach me but u said 'next time'."

WHAT????
SO NOW U'RE BLAMING ME FOR NOT TEACHING U???
IT'S ALL MY FAULT???
U SHUD HAVE LEARNT IT URSELF!!!!!!!

it's not fair!!!
i had finished my job.....n yet i had to change all his referencing.....
not fair at all!!!!
think about it.....
i had to come home n clean up all his mess; while he can go home n sleep!!!!!

URGHHHHHHH!!!!!! JUZ GO TO HELL!!!!!!

my sister said that with this kind of attitude....this guy will have a hard time doing his degree....
n i'm not ashamed to say that my reaction to that was.....
smirk.....n say: "well, i hope he suffers..."

aih~~
i was thinking i could hand in the assignment n be done with it.....
then can relax for the day......

but then disaster strikes again.......
we went to CTS class at 9.30......
n Ms. Winnie said: "Maximum 4000 words ah....."
GOSH.........WE HAD 6259 WORDS!!!!

n so we had to edit again......
skipped class to do that........
haha......my 1st time in Foundation.......
anyway......we managed to condense our work till 4074 words........

n then finally handed up at 1++ pm........
phew~~

doing this assignment.....
i've certainly learnt a lot....

i procrastinate
and this damn habit is killing me!!!!

there is this english research paper [minimum 2000 words =.=] that we were supposed to submit by 11 p.m. last Sunday via elearning [crappy website..server always down]...
the assignment was given 6 weeks ago...
dammit

n u noe wat???
i oni started to write at 2.35 a.m. on the day of the deadline
wrote n wrote n wrote until 10 sth at nite...
oni pausing in between to have my meals....plus one nap after breakfast
[plus...my uncle invited us to go to Port Klang to eat seafood....tht's like an hour there and an hour back....5.30p.m. go frm my hse....got back arnd 9.00p.m......HAH....can always count on him to drop bombs like tht n gimme extra stress!!]
n finally submitted at 10.35 p.m.
haha.....of course i submitted on time!!
it's juz tht my paper got crappier towards the end lah....
n my conclusion sounded as hypocritical as ever.....

isk...
my point here is......
I NEED TO GET RID OF MY PROCRASTINATION!!!
it's seriously gonna cost me a lot.....
erm...actually i already suffered some consequences n still suffer from them....
such as i could've done better in SPM....

oh....n i must complain about this....
Marc actually started later than me...
n submitted earlier than me....
fine...tht means he can write fast.....
but guess wat he told us this morning....

after he submitted his paper....he read it....
n he thought: "IT'S GOOD!"

OMG!!....can praise himself summore...
*faint*

okie....
turns out tht Jon oso fell asleep while smsing....
ah...typical of him....
but it shows tht we are indeed good buddies....can even fall asleep around the same time!
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anyway...he did wish me a happy belated birthday....

now Bro, on the other hand.....
did indeed FORGOT about it.....
oni remembered it this morning.......=.=
haha....ok i admit....
i called him after he smsed me.....juz to bug him.....
but he promised to make it up to me n buy me lunch.....provided tht he's free......=.=
ceh Bro....i oso got assignments to hand up SOON.....
*stress stress stress*
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oh n musnt forget tht alien....or shud i call him devil?
either suits him anyway....haha
yes Allen, wished me 'Happy Birthday...belated!' this evening when i passed him by at the corridor....
i said 'TOO LATE!'
=p

aiyaya....now i c how ironic it is....
my closest guy friends....Jon, Bro, Ken......all wished me oni after my birthday was over......
i shall do the same thing to them next year!!!

I noe of someone, who thinks of his birthday as juz another day....
well, now i agree wif his perspective

yesterday was my 18th birthday.
i had class from 8 till 6.30....got home around 7.30....
had dinner.....then slept
juz another normal day in college....haha

but i'm glad to say tht though nobody celebrated on my bday....
i celebrated BEFORE it....

thanks to Karen....
i had a 5 hour karaoke fun time wif my college frens last friday.
unfortunately not the whole gang was there...
Mei Yean went to Kuantan; Kelvin was sick; and Adam....
i suspect tht he was afraid he had to spend money so he wouldnt come....
haha
anyway, i wanna thank KAREN, YOKE HUN, MICHEAL, WEN XUAN, TYNG PANG and KOK CHERN....for paying for everything
hahahahahaha
kiddin lah.....THANK YOU FOR CELEBRATING WITH ME
i had a great time....^^

n then on Saturday night....
i had dinner with my family at Daorae...
yup...tht Korean restaurant next to Carrefour at Metro Prima.
had a great time too....cuz i like the food there....
haha....
but most importantly they served us seaweed soup....
a must when somebody's having her/his birthday.....
haha....yup....tht's Korean culture....

and i wanna thank everybody who wished me Happy Birthday....
Kelvin [the 1st one....but unfortunately AN HOUR B4 MY BIRTHDAY]
Chya Chyi [at 12 midnight...haha....love u]
Yoke Hun
almost forgot...my ONNI
Marc
Ee Lin
Karen
Shin Yue
Adam [wished me about 5/6 times ><]
Wen Xuan
Kher Ye
Tyng Pang
Kok Chern
Micheal
Keng Fai
Cai Yi
Ee Ling
Mei Yean
Xuan
Mel
aunt Sau Ping
Ken Vern [unfortunately he oni smsed me arnd 2am today....AFTER my bday ><]
n then ppl who wished me on Facebook...juz saw it anyway....
Patricia & Kai Jian......erm.....dunno how they noe my bday....

do forgive me if i forgot to include anybodyd else's name....but thank you....

yes...im trying to prove sth here....
Jon didn't wish me....but he did sms me....
'sis....how u?'....n i answered....'wat me how? ok la'....then he answered 'ok oni meh? haha...'
sry lah brother....i slept dy.....so nvr reply....
i noe u planned to wish me lah.......so thx......love u anyway

n then there is my Bro....
didnt wish me at all.....
which proves tht he DOES dare to forget my birthday...
maybe he did it on purpose.....
=.= ...... in tht case......i don love u.....
haha...kidding kidding

anyway....happy birthday to me.....
=P

eish.......there's a void in my life
it juz feels empty

maybe bcoz my birthday is nearing....
a day when i shud celebrate or do sth fun wif my buddies...
damn... i truly miss u guys a lot.....
but it seems tht we are all so far apart

maybe bcoz the deadline for the submission of my english research paper is nex week
i havent even started anything
n then there's another one for critical thinking skills....
damn...i don think we could find any books about 'Circumcision'
how are we supposed to get reference?
n then there's another one for moral....
no idea wat we're gonna do either
these assignments are giving me so much stress tht im ignoring them
BAD SIGN
damn...tht's wat i did wif my Add Maths....
see how i ended up suffering......................

maybe i juz need a boyfriend to shower me wif love
somebody find me a boyfriend plz?
haha....now tht's real CRAP

maybe i need a religion
should i juz become a Buddhist? or a Christian?
way of life? or believe in God?
at least having a religion would give me a sense of direction i guess

maybe i juz need some motivation...
=.=

Remember when we were in Standard 6, each of us would have this cute little book for everyone to write down their names n stuff [details of ourselves], so that we'll all remember each other?

but i don't have one of those though....

everybody had their own 'standards & requirements'
for instance, some would like u to describe them, some would like u to give them an advice....
all kinds of stuff

i remember a few times when i was required to 'rate' my friends.....
BEST BEST FRIEND, BEST FRIEND, GOOD GOOD FRIEND, GOOD FRIEND, FRIEND, NOT SO FRIEND.......
well, it sounded ridiculous....but i did it anyway
and to tell the truth, i really rated my friends in my head.....

to even have thought of it shows how shallow-minded i was...
haha

but if i were to rate my friends now......i wouldn't be able to do it
well how am i gonna rate these people?
who's gonna be my BEST BEST BEST FRIEND?
would it be....
Jon, the most sensible yet sentimental friend ever?
Xuan, the oldest friend ever?
Mel, the brightest friend ever?
or Bro, who dares to forget my birthday??
but of course, there are friends that i have yet to mention.......