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Hello people.
I am changing my blog URL.
The new URL: www.rightbackwhatiswrong.blogspot.com

haha...yes...u just have to change 2 words. (rite --> right ; wat -->what)
actually the reason is very simple.
I used my hotmail to sign up when i opened this blog.
Now I want to change it to my gmail account.
Very 'ma fan' loh... everytime i sign in gmail my blog will automatically sign out one...
It's ok if u don c the connection... hahaha...

So, please remember to change the URL if u have linked me in ur website. =D

Whee~~ We got the GIANT Super Show 2 poster!
Thanks to my sis' friend who also helped with buying the tickets.
I think it's as big as our Linkin Park poster...maybe bigger.

Yee Theng said there's 100 days left to our exams.
Translated: OH NO...I'M DEAD.
That is...if I don't do something about my studies. =.=
Ok. It's do or die.

Today is JaeJoong's birthday.

Hahahahah...that was random.
Yup, I know the birthdates of every single member of TVXQ and SuJu. XD
In case you don't know who he is, he's Hero from TVXQ, always in the middle.

There have been rumours of disbandment (TVXQ) , and I'm not sure what to believe.
But I do believe, that deep down, they are together as one.
I feel it from their singing.


Haha...it's fine if you don't get it. Many don't.

"Always keep the faith"
Micky and Jaejoong had these words tattooed on their chests.
Was it a promise between them?
Or a silent plea to fans to believe in them?
Who knows... But fans like to think so.

In any case, they are the ones having the hardest time.
I hope they really keep faith in themselves, and in each other.

I never knew that I could be like this.
Xuan told me this a couple of years ago too; I laughed at the time.
Now, I'm saying this to myself.

I never knew you could be so crazy over idol singers!

At the time, she was talking about Dong Bang Shin Ki.
Today, I'm talking about Super Junior!!!

To people who don't know it yet:
Yes! SUPER JUNIOR is coming to MALAYSIA!

Woohoo, we got the tickets!

Coming back to my statement, why did I suddenly have such a thought?
During break in Econs class today, my friends asked me about the seating plan of the concert, and we started talking about it.
I got so excited I couldn't even concentrate later in class.
To the point where my hands were shaking and my heart was beating faster than usual.

I mean...
Man, I got so worked up I couldn't believe it myself.

I wonder how I'd behave if it was Dong Bang Shin Ki instead.
They did come 2 years ago; but I had SPM and it was impossible for me to go.
It is regrettable, not being able to hear them sing live, but I think I traded that with an A1 in Bio.
HAHA. It's all about opportunity cost, isn't it?
Not too long ago, I learned that Kher Ye got free tickets to that concert and went with her mother. Plus, she got good seats. T.T
The only thing I can say is, Kher Ye, why didn't I know you at that time?!

I didn't think that SUPER JUNIOR would have their concert in Malaysia.
I hope it's super successful so they would come again in the future.
Well, so far, it's been optimistic. Hundreds of fans turned up yesterday to buy tickets, so I'm guessing they're selling like hot cakes.
My sis told me about the concert on Saturday, saw an article on the newspaper.
I read the papers on Sunday, and I told her, I want that giant poster!
It's said the organizers are giving 500 free giant posters for every purchase of 2 tickets.
Pre-sale started yesterday, only available at Sungai Wang.
So my sis went there around noon and MAN, SUPER SUPER LONG QUEUE!
I was having socio lecture, but at the same time worried about my ticket. We were buying numbered seats so it was crucial we get our desired spot.
So I kept texting her to get real time updates, haha. Sorry Dr Chin ><

I heard it was chaotic out there. There was only one counter.
They didn't even set up lines for queuing.
The number of staffs, credit card machines and computers were just too few.
And, you have to fill up a form before you buy the tickets.
So it was very damn slow. In the end it took my sis more than 4 hours to finally get the tickets.
Blame it on terrible management and horrible customer service!
Or shall I say, underestimating the popularity of SJ and the power of ELFs???
On top of that, you have to queue again on the 31st to get the poster. LIARS.

Well whatever, most important thing is I'M GOING. Haha.
Some people might be puzzled, how I can spend RM458 on a single concert without even thinking about it.
I think, that watching thousands or millions of videos of them on Youtube, doesn't add up to an experience of seeing them perform live.
Sadly, this time, not everyone is coming. I don't get to see all 13 members.
Kibum doesn't participate in Super Show 2; Kangin has been 'frozen'; Hangeng has contract issues. And some say Heechul might not come.
Damn, I really want to see 韩庚. He is one person I really admire.

Here's a side story before I end this post.
Yesterday, I was talking about the concert with my friends, during break too. Haha.
Dr Chin was writing notes on the board, and he turned around to ask us, 'Are you talking about a show?'
I said, 'Concert.'
'Whose concert?' he asked.
'Korean boy band', I answered.
He said, 'You are his (maybe he thought it's one singer) fan? Well, that's interesting.'

Mind you, we were having a class on cultural globalization.
It is interesting. If it weren't for technological globalization, I wouldn't be able to become a Kpop fan. And so Korean culture is influencing me; I'm contributing to cultural globalization. o.0
We are at the mercy of globalization.
Can it be stopped? I don't think so.
The more important question is, how do we deal with it?
As Dr Chin pointed out yesterday, globalization comes with a price, the question is whether we are able to pay it.

When you think of new year, you think of new year resolution.
Well, maybe not. Haha.
But this brings back memories.
William (my former english tutor) used to tell us to write our new year's resolution (essay), every year without fail.
I only did it once, in Form One. And that wasn't even an essay, just 10 separate sentences.
After that, I didn't complete any essays.

It was all meaningless to me.
Or perhaps I was just afraid that I'd get disappointed at the end of the year, when I failed to fulfill my goals.

So, what's different this year?

Before that, let me tell you something.
My regular sleeping hours are 4am - 1pm (whenever I don't have class).

So, this morning around 9 something, I was in my brother's room playing his NDS.
My dad came in, and said to my bro, "New year, new beginning."
And the kid asked, "What does that mean?"
Dad: "Like your sister here, new year wake up early. So it's a new beginning."

The truth of the matter is, if you see me up and about by 9 o'clock in the morning, there are only 2 possible reasons:
One, I'm either going to class or I'm going out.
Two, I didn't sleep.

So, Dad inspired this.
My new year's resolution:
Adjust my sleeping hours

ps: Happy New Year! =P

My full time job, you would guess that it's STUDENT.

二家姐

That first step you take is the longest stride

But my problem is, I don't take the next step.


I've seen people hurting by thinking too much.
I hurt myself by doing nothing.

Family = People who see the bad/worse side of me

Friends = People who see the better side of me

Others = People who see whatever they want to see in me

I was struck by a sudden realization, while rereading the Twilight saga, that my time as a teenager is coming to an end.

Bella wanted to be frozen in her teens, before she turned 20, because Edward is forever 17. Haha.

Friends! We are turning into our 20s!

How about that, huh?

Haha. It actually doesn't bother me much.

Rather, it gives me one less reason to remain a kid.

Okay, maybe that does bother me a little. o.0

I was wondering about what is left of my days as a teen, when I backtracked and relived the year.

It sure was eventful, but lonely as well.

Foundation to Degree.

Psychology to Economics.

Local to Abroad.

I don't like change. Especially transformations that were not initiated by me.

It really is a blessing and a curse, to have an elder in the family who would stir up my life, in the name of fatherly love.

Manipulative, that's the word. And it irritates the hell out of me.

Still, a blessing and a curse.

On another note, I realized that the world was getting lonelier.

My parents don't see past my obvious flaws.

My friends are growing distant physically and intellectually. Sunway, Singapore, UK; Arts, Science, Social Science.

My relationship with sister was regressing towards roommates, as we were submerged in our own personal problems, and rarely shared them. [Note the past tense]

And my broken mirror nicked me time and time again with his self-centredness and lack of faith, reminding me of his pain, hoping I could fix him up.

In any case, nobody felt the need to share their inner thoughts with me, so I felt the same.

Not even bothering to BLOG about anything at all. It was lonely. =.=

One other thing that I would regret is I idled away a lot of my time. A LOT.

I'm ashamed to talk about how I wasted my time, so let's just leave it at that.

Urgh...my guilt is eating me up.

Regardless, I still learnt. Stumbling all the way towards adulthood.

Pray for a better me.

I know of a person, who very much wants to study in UK.
But, her parents are against the idea. They cannot support her financially.
Besides, she has 3 younger siblings who are still in school.
Regardless, she still wants to go.

I find it ironic, because I was the complete opposite.
My family were the ones who told me to go ahead; while I was the one worried about spending their money.
And I struggled for so long, to find the right reasons for me to want to go.

If I were her, I wouldn't even think about it.
That's why it's so ironic.
But I am in no position to discourage her.

This is one of those times when I should be grateful of what I have.
And it reminds me of a phrase my former lecturer once said, "Thank God life is not fair".

Last Friday, the UOL department had our very first annual dinner at Hilton KL, all thanks to Dr Chin and the students in charge.
It was fun, I had a great time with my friends.

That was the introduction.
Actually Cousin Grace was bugging me to share photos on Facebook.
I didn't know I have to create an album to post photos there. =.=
Besides, if I post them on Facebook, almost everyone will see them.
I prefer more privacy than that.
So here, photos taken on my phone.

MT: Mi...don't call me at 12 sth...I was having class.

Mom: I forgot what time you finish class...sms so frustrating...so I gave up and called...

Dad: Next time, write your timetable on the board. You know ur mom, always forget.
[and on and on......]

MT: *speechless*


and please... do not imagine the conversation in a nice nice tone. I assure you it was much more annoying than that.

It is amazing. They twist something fairly irrelevant to pick my faults.
Arguing makes it worse. What a defensive family.

I saw these words in Bread Story yesterday, and I immediately thought of someone.
"Are you nuts" is actually the name of a bread, by the way.
It's filled and coated with peanut butter.
So, back to my story.
I thought I should buy this bread for Mr Raj, indirectly asking him "Are you nuts?"
HAHA

Well, I'm sure he'd say YES.
He sometimes says this in class, "You all must be thinking I'm a crazy nut."
And during those times I would mentally nod my head.

So, who is he, you might ask.
He is my Sociology tutor.
And he constantly amazes me.
So don't get me wrong, I'm not calling him nuts for negative reasons.
I actually like him a lot.

And you would have no idea how crazy he is unless you've experienced it yourself.
But here's a good story he told this morning, and I think it shows how unique he is.

So yesterday, Mr Raj was in the lift. There was this student beside him who was talking too loudly. Mr Raj was very annoyed. He wanted to tell this student, "I don't want to hear about your life, keep it to yourself." Or something similar to that. But of course, that wasn't a good idea. He didn't even want to talk to this person. So all he did was, he looked at the student, and then he looked at his own fingers, then he walked out. Just then he heard some students laughing behind him, so he turned around and said something, then walked away leaving the students stunned.

He said, "HUMAN EXISTENCE IS AN ERROR."

So it was my birthday...
and I had so many people wishing me on facebook...
Thank you, each and everyone of you.
though I cannot tell if you really meant it...
so I'm sarcastic...shoot me

And everyone who wished me through text messages, thank you.
Thank you for remembering my birthday ^^

And thank you Grace and Lai Thin, for celebrating with me.
I'm sure you are still full.....wahahaha
By the way, I think my stomach expanded 0.o
Hahahahah

And thank you Kher Ye and Phoebe, who treated me to steamboat yesterday.
Kind of like an early celebration. =P

And the best of all...thank you Xiao Sian and Wei Han...
It's great to see you guys battle it out to be the 1st to wish me on my birthday.
Your rivalry amuses me like nothing else...hahahahahah
And I will hold you to your promises!!! XP

So here's a photo of me today, making a silly pose.
Actually copied someone...haha

It's holiday.
I'm wasting my time reading romance novels again, though I have some stuff I should do.
In fact, I should really get started, and get it over with. Otherwise, there'll be hell to pay.
Well, I'll get around to it. No worries.

So, it's holiday.
Bro was asking me whether I had plans.
Told me to get on a trip, be adventurous.
Then I told him I'm the stay-at-home type.
And then he changed the topic and asked me whether I joined any clubs.
I answered, "Since when did u start caring about my social life?"
Haha...that put him off.

Ok, I'll tell you the truth.
The answer is no.
But I didn't want to kena 'ngam'.
I knew you'd turn into the typical big brother and start lecturing me again.
So there was nothing secretive lah....haiyo....
Don't be so suspicious.

Friendships are not supposed to be like this.

You burdened him with your selfishness, that was your mistake.
He gave up on you, that was his mistake.

I understand his actions, and I wouldn't blame him either.
But I will say this once.
If he gave up on you that easily, he doesn't deserve you.

Quit wondering if things will ever go back to how it was.
It will never be the same again.
Even if you rebuilt the friendship, the scars would still be there.

So let go. Just let go.


I know, that he is more important than the rest of us.
But think, how I feel, everytime you come to me troubled.
Don't take us for granted, the friends who care about you.

I'm done.
Done being a failure.

What is the price?
And what am I fighting for?

Well, really?

I'll admit.
I am weak at vocabulary.
I am not good at expressing myself.
I have bad social skills.

But my English is grammatically correct.
My academic results in English has always been good.
A1 in GCE 'O' / 1119
I don't think that is VERY BAD.

I am an ignorant kid.
You can treat me as such, make fun of me.
But don't look down on me.


Nickelback - Savin' Me
'Teach me wrong from right, and I'll show you what I can be'

It has always been a constant in my life.
It has taken me places.
But how much further can it take me?
I feel, I am reaching my limits.