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so i've graduated from secondary school
nvr gonna go back....
have now moved on to studying in college
but life is not as fun as b4....

well...back in KB...i had frens like old-pal Xuan n same-channel Jon n all other frens i love so much....not to forget funny-expression Siang =D
hehe

now tht we've gone on our separate paths.....i miss them a lot....

though i've met new frens..
i'll not b as close to new college frens as i m wif this bunch of great frens
well...tht's how i feel

the reason...i think...is bcoz as u grow...it gets harder to trust ppl...
i bliv trust is the most important element in any relationship...
if u trust each other...u hav a strong friendship
n this sort of trust do not build within a short period of time...

not having trusted old frens around made me feel a bit lonely....
n i realised how important they r to me...
love u guys......hehe =P
wan me to mention name meh...><

but at least...i get c to one of them in HELP sometimes...
so i get to b myself for a few brief moments.....
though i'd bet BRO is ever oblivious to how happy i m to c him =.=

well...it sure took me long to finish this post...
gud nite...

met Shin Yue at HELP.....turns out he's doing A Level there.....
gud for u pal.......

n he told me to update blog =.=

haha....truth is.....i blog only when i have sth to let out.....

no thoughts....no blog........

it's either tht....or i've too much to say tht i decided not to think too much bout it......n so no blog......

erm.....wat to talk about today then???

ok...currently having week-long holiday......a day left

din do any homework........or preparations for presentation watsoever

bad..........

read novels......3 novels......to b exact.......

n watched taiwan drama....[ They Kiss Again ] ........
the 2nd series of the drama [It Started With a Kiss ] .........
kinda gud......better than most taiwan drama tht is........
but sth about the chemistry between the leading actors tht makes me suspect they may b together in real life.....or were together......[though i've heard they denied such scandals].......
how they fit against each other......how they kiss...........
i'm serious.......watch it urself if u don bliv me.........they kiss too well.........
erm.....but my advice is don let kids watch.......too much intimate scenes.........overload...........
haha.........

another thing is went wif KB choir this wednesday to competition......
unfortunately we're not gud enuf this yr.......
well.....it's kinda disappointing........
they could do a LOT better than tht...........
in all the 3 years i'd been in the choir.......we always went into finals........
from 3rd to 5th to 2nd.........n now we're not even in...........
i juz feel bad for the juniors.......they worked for it.........
but apparently not everyone was committed enuf.........
*sigh*
hope they do better in the future......

OK.....i admit.......i m computer illiterate......

haha........tht's quite irrelevant....

anyway.....my fren taught me to simply type an email address......
then click sign in automatically.......
so my account will not b displayed everytime ppl click on windows messenger......
wuahahahahaha........

still........STUPID ME......

=.=

by the way......i used 'blablabla'

now sitting in computer lab....half listening to computing lecturer talking about Microsoft Word....

did one stupid thing....
signed in wif windows messenger........n now if u open windows messenger wif this computer......u can sign in wif my account.....
SHIT....tht means anyone can sign in wif my account lah............

great job.......mt.......great job........

so now my question is.....how do i UNDO this thing????
man....i m so damned stupid.......

arghhhhhhhhhh

yup...here to clarify ONE thing....

if you've read the previous post.....u'll noe i said my brother is useless......

but i didnt elaborate on it so mayb ppl might misunderstand me......
not tht anybody complained to me or anything....
juz wanna make things straight b4 anybody say i hate my bro or sth...

i love my brother....
in fact i m the only one in my family who understands him better than anyone else.......
n i m am often grateful tht God has given me this brother....
his situation was the one thing tht taught me not to discriminate others.....among other things....

yes....my bro IS useless.......
but tht is bcoz he is using his disability as his excuse to not learn or do anything.....
n bcoz my mom used to let him be when he made mistakes.....
he's SLOW.......it's not his fault......he is like tht de lah.......
well....to me tht's all CRAP.....

tht's wat makes me angry sometimes......
the fact tht he is a slow learner doesnt mean tht he cant grow up.......

however......it is sad to say tht kids wif learning disabilities do not get the right kind of care and education they need....in this country......
the Sekolah Khas are useless.......those students juz go to skool n sit.......
damn useless......
n my family hav to send my bro twice a week to somewhere in PJ for tuition..........
he's considered lucky to at least hav some kind of education.....
but wat about the others whose family cannot afford tuition fees or stuff like tht??????

i felt tht i shud do sth about this..........
in anyway i can.......
so perhaps one way to start is to study psychology.....

anyway.......i noe i m not very gud at expressing myself.....so mayb u wont understand wat i wrote.........
i do not expect anybody to understand me.....
haha....but sis n cousin definitely will......

aiya...nth more to say........

-mt out-